our adoption journey {part 1}...

Awhile back I mentioned that I was going to

write a little about our adoption journey...

I have been thinking about it & in truth

dreading it...I tend to be more of a "private"

person when it comes to my thoughts

 & feelings & I knew that I was going to have

to bear a little of my soul here...& although I

am passionate about adoption, the thought of

"sharing" about "us" on this public blog makes

me a little ill! But I feel like I need to say this!

{too many people don't "quite" understand

& too many assumptions are made about

international adoption}!

 I know adoption is highly

controversial & if you don't believe that-

try adopting :)!But before we begin...

how about some eye candy :)...

{isn't he the sweetest thing ever?!?}

ok - now on to our story...

Actually I am not for sure where to start.

For adoption & me I don't think that there ever

was an "ah-ha" moment. There never was a

beginning or first thought. It has always been in

the back of my mind {I just wasn't for sure

what to make of it!}.

A few people have asked us about our

descision to adopt from China versus the U.S.

or some other area. Well for us we really felt

like HE was calling us to an Asian country,

but we did sort through an entire pile of other options

& started tossing out countries that had rules/regulations

that we could not meet.

 & China ended up being one of the ones left!

& Honestly...we knew our hearts were  called there!

Before you brush this off

as "whatever - they all say that!" {yes-

we've heard that too!:)}. I just want to explain

what exactly that means for us!

Just as I said before about adoption always

being in my heart, so has Asian people &

their culture. {I could say I don't know why -

or I could choose to believe why! HE placed it there!}

growing up I always picked the Indian or Asian dolls,

noticed the Asian children in town & even thought

that Asian men were so attractive :)...

{I can't believe I'm sharing all of this!!- but it is so heavy on my heart!}

Anyhow...E. & I got married...

{which btw...he isn't Asian but I am still attracted to him;)!}

We talked about adoption off & on...

{He was all for it!}

It was something we were open to...

but that was about as far as our discussion would get.

{I should mention that we were & had been

continually bombarded with a sense of racism- which

sounds a little harsh but really in all fairness

any time we think we are superior

 to others- it is racism!-I challenge all of you -me included to examine our

own thought process- I think we all have some racism embedded in us!}.

 We had to wrestle & sort all this out.

We finally came to the conclusion

that this burden we felt for the fatherless

wasn't going to leave us...

part 2 to come when I have a few free minutes :)...

until then...

-did you know that the HIS word mentions

caring for the fatherless, widows & strangers over 60 times!..

{that amazed me!}

-HE is a father to the fatherless...Psalm 68:5

disclaimer: *this is our story & in no way am I saying

this is how it should be :) - you are welcome

to have your own opinions on everything here-

the only thing you can't argue with is scripture :)!